Dear Diary,

4/08/2011 The Romantic 1 Comments

I just got off the phone with a dear friend from high school. She was regaling me with old stories from her journal about the days when we used to pal around stake dances and girl's camp together. Those were some of the best times of my life.

But that made me look through one of my old journals.
The one from my study abroad.
The one where I got written off by the guy I thought I was going to marry.

I don't know that I've written about that very much here, just because it was always too personal. But in flipping through the pages of my little moleskin today, I realized how completely over him I am. Even when I knew things were over right after I got back from Europe and he was engaged to someone else, I was still really bitter. (This is when the Anti-Austen first began if you want to scroll back to some of our earliest posts)

But, I'm not even that anymore. He genuinely was such an incredible person. And good for him for recognizing that our relationship wouldn't work out, and having the strength to move on even though we loved each other. I'm so glad I can remember those things now, instead of all the hurt and anger.

I'm going to post something he wrote in a letter to me once. It might be a little sappy for some of you, and little bit more serious than what I usually write. But I've always loved it and thought there was a little bit of truth to it. I hope you think so too.

"I hope you are able to take quiet moments to listen to the silence. That is where I have felt God speaking, comfort swelling, wisdom taking hold, peace blessing, and the Spirit healing. Listening to the wind in the trees and my breath flowing in and out has taught me many important things. May you find the time to listen to the whispers of your heart. Therein lies a powerful deity with more potential than anyone alive could know. If the people of earth could see and understand this potential, the world would dance for you! This world would dance for everyone...and you know, I believe it does. We must find the music in our daily life! Sometimes it's hidden in our suffering or buried deep within our longing. It's often as obvious as a bird or the sea or as loud as a storm! But we need to learn to sing and dance while the music is being played or we might miss everything."

Happy weekend dear readers! Take some time to enjoy the silence before finals will you?

xoxo
-the Romantic